■ summer ■ starts ■ now ■

Headband: Dolls Kill - Top: H&M -Skirt: American Apparel - Shoes: H&M

After being extremely busy these last few weeks - with YouTube and a multitude of real life things - the biggest part of what I had to do is done now.
That means I can focus at least a little bit more on YouTube and more importantly I can finally relax a little. Let me tell you that is so badly needed.
That also means I can finally start my summer. And no hay fever will stop me from enjoying my hours of sunshine and summer fun!

Yesterday it was warm enough for the first time for me to go outside without any tights! Yas! Sun on skin is such a nice sensation, I feel like I've been inside forever. To be honest that's probably even kind of true.

Time management is pretty complicated trying to fit everything I *must* do into my limited 24 hours and then also produce a couple of gaming videos for YouTube. It's not only complicated but also hella exhausting. 
(Did someone say sleep? I need some of that shit! You got any?) 

I'm seriously hoping to make YouTube my financially-possible fulltime job by the end of this year. 

But for now I'll take a couple of days to chill and recharge my batteries (I hate that saying). 
Of course there will still be daily videos but Bubbls needs some fun times!

My Spring 2016 Aesthetics

(Top, leggings & shoes from H&M, choker from Dolls Kill)

My teenage self is squealing with joy.

After wearing mostly vintage fashion and pin-up inspired clothing for almost two years for both my photo shoots and in my free time, I felt it was time for a change. Or well, a change back. Going full circle so to speak.

In my teenage years I was an ambitious follower of gothic and "emo" fashion styles mixed with a bit of punk. Anything dark or alternative, you can be sure that I would love it.

Here you have an awkward, alternative teen picture of me. Shot with a terrible digital camera. Ugh.

I would like to think that - hopefully - my fashion sense has evolved in the past few years and even more so my make-up skills with it. Because, let's face it: I thought eye-liner was all you need. (Conclusion after going through old pictures: I was definitely wrong.)

So, lately I found myself being drawn to alternative fashion styles once more. Back in the day hunting for gothic-inspired clothing was a whole lot more difficult and often a lot more expensive.
With - more or less mildly - alternative fashion becoming a wider known and accepted trend in the last years you can often find a couple of nice pieces of clothing at big stores like H&M, Forever 21 or Primark, even if you're on a budget. For me in the end it all comes down to how you combine things in your own style, it's not about how much they cost.

A website I have recently fallen in love with is Dolls Kill. Surely everybody who likes a different sort of clothing already knows this site, but hey! I have a few years of alternative fashion to catch up on! While I absolutely love almost everything in their store, my wallet really, really hates it.
One specific brand I've had an eye on lately is Killstar. Their fashion -  while still being alternative and featuring a huge amount of really cool prints and patterns - seems also pretty wearable for everyday purposes.

Bottom line is: Spring is coming and while everybody will be dressed in pastel colours, I will go back to black. Once more.